Can a machine being more effective than drugs?


A few weeks ago, I have been in a medical fair. I was visiting there a friend pharmacist, my first CS host two years ago. But as well I was there for my own purpose, to look at what was new and interesting in the medical field.

I tested a lof machines but one really caught my attention. It is a machine to help to reduce the epilepsy episodes. I had been living for 5 years with my epileptic aunt who could have a few crises a day. She was the most important person in my childhood as the one the most in charge of me. She was one of the human being I cared the most for. So for me every time I see improvements in the epilepsy medical field, I am more than interested even she died ten years ago.

So I found this machine, and tried it right away. They were saying it could as well help autism, depression, etc.. Usually the session lasts half an hour, they did it to me only a few minutes.

After, during the day, I forgot about this machine completely. I went on with my routine. But suddenly I said to myself: I have no idea what I did today to feel so great. I have never felt so perfectly joyful.

Was it this machine to fight depression?

Later in my day in this fair, I met a Saudi VIP, I had been his student in Riyadh for a short training course. I did not remember it first. Just his face looked familiar to me. He was fun and clever, dressed with the traditional Saudi white summer abaya and red and white ghutra on his head.

So unexpectedly, we had a lot of common interests together in this fair. I was pleased to meet someone as curious as I was, but in the same time, someone having the budget to buy all this and to bring it in hospitals.

So he tried this machine, he tried a lot of others machines.

We had met in front of the machine for sexual improvement. I wanted to try it of course, but we started to talk and laugh in front this machine and so I forgot to try it and he did not try it either. I regretted it afterwards, but if I would have tried this one, so I would have thought my joy of the day could have been linked to this one.

It was a mysterious machine, for sexual problems for men, for women orgasms, and a lot more all this connected to the urinary system, etc. You just had to sit, and there was a kind of magnetic wave, and that’s it. Cannot tell you more about that.

So this man tried all the machines and after, during the evening, he called me and I joined him to smoke a shisha, not that I like so much smoking shisha but well. And that was it, nothing happened it was just friendly, we shared an excellent pizza.

He talked a lot about how for him it was important to smile, that he was always careful in his job, to always give a happy face, and to be positive, to look at the bright side of life, to value people around him. To not be a negative boss always criticizing the team work, etc.

The thing is when I met him, I had been on this machine to make you happy, a few minutes before, I must have been a little euphoric, and I guess he liked my energy at that time. The evening I was normal again, means just normal, and so he must have been disappointed in me.

This feeling of deep happiness lasted only for the afternoon, but at night this feeling had disappeared. Not that I was depressed or anything, I was just being more normal.

On Facebook one week ago, a friend of mine, said that depression now was healed with magnets, and even him, told me that at his hospital they already had magnets therapies.

He tried this machine and might have felt wonderful if he had the same after effects, he did not tell me anything about it, and maybe did not feel anything.
We tried the same kind of machines as well on our back, legs, everywhere, to relax the muscles, to heal the back. He had a little pain in the back, so I brought him there for this as well. For the back it is really great.
So this is it. What is happiness?

Some people take drugs to reach happiness. I do not take drugs; I do not think cannabis brought anything positive and good to the people around me. It makes them lose their memory; it makes them irascible when they do not have it. I do not think it makes them even calmer. No, cannabis is not great, maybe for the pain killing it is good, but for the mind it is bad for what I have observed around me. It makes my friends being passive in life, not active enough. I do not like my friends on cannabis.

For this the Middle Est where I am, Is great for me, as it is a drug free place. Within 3 years I never met anyone on drug here. What a relief compare to my life in London… Where I had even friends hooked on crack, heroin, and I had to save them in clinic where they were dying.

What a horrible country for this UK, for drugs. I saw women in Manchester peeing in front of bars, opening their legs and peeing. Young girls. Getting drunk and vomiting on the streets is very common in UK.

So for this I appreciate the life in this part of Middle Est. Weirdly, I am not for a strict prohibition of drugs, but more for a liberalization of drugs, but so I can see the results of laxist laws, people are stuck on drugs very easily. When you cannot find drugs, so there is no temptation. What is the solution to all this? Right now there is no solution being found nowhere.

Two days ago, I went in a Ladies night, and in this part of the Middle Est, there are a lot of Ladies nights, it means free drinks for ladies. I could have had 6 cocktails. Took only 2 which is my max. I would say usually I take just one glass of kind of champagne in those ladies night and give the ticket for the second glass to a friend of mine or to an unknown lady at a table. Did the same this time gave it to nice Filipina ladies at my table.

In this bar last night, I felt incredibly free. It was two days ago.

I had a normal day, nothing special. I had worked a little, it has been very positive, a very good energy. And so, I thought I will go to this Ladies night because it is a few minutes’ walk from my building. It was 8’clock in the evening.

I arrived in this huge Irish bar, crowded with ladies. A lot of Asian girls, some air hostess as usual, mostly from UK, a lot of young girls looking like the Twilight actress, pale, and in their thoughts, looking at the Scottish band without any reaction.
When I arrived, there was this music, nearly right away. It is a famous new song, but I did not know it. And the rhythm, the wave of love hit me. I was nearly the only one to clap in my hands and to sing Hey HO. The atmosphere was cold, like if I would be in the middle of beautiful vampires.

Slowly during the night, the atmosphere became warmer, two people dared to dance, I did not.

Hanging at the bar, there was a guy, all dressed up in the Oriental
classical abaya and ghutra.

He was the only one dressed like that. Girls were wearing sexy short skirts and guys blue jeans for most of them. They looked Indians, Asian, English, Americans, Arabic, etc.
So there was this man, standing at the bar. He looked nice, well in his skin, he was handsome, In his thirties or maybe older.

I could not resist to talk with him when waiting for my cocktail. I told him, oh you are brave, you are really keeping your identity here. He was working for an Arabic government in the oil department. Was coming back from work, did not have time to change his clothes. He made me laugh. He was drinking beer directly at the bottle.
He joined me later on at my table, but we did not talk that much because of the music.

I was feeling relax, singing, and listening to this Scottish band singing HEY HO HEY HO. So what made me feel great at that time? Free cocktails? This Arabic guy dressed in the Saudi traditional style in the middle of this Western crowd? This excellent band singing the song from the Lumineers?



I always have in mind to retire for my old days in Ireland, mostly for the bars.
I like UK for this reason, I like people singing in bars.

Unfortunately last night, the people were cold and not singing enough, in Scotland or Ireland the atmosphere would have been better.
But well, sometimes I do feel great, and in fact I do not know why. This perfect bliss moment.
Happiness is often linked to a feeling of forgetting about the body, about the ego, and just to let go, to relax. In the music, in the moment.
I can feel that way as well, in thermal water, in jacuzzis, with bubbles massaging me.

Of course I can feel that perfect bliss moment with a lover. But this perfect moment is often shadowed by moments of doubts, of anxiety of being hooked on the wrong person, or to be hooked on someone not willing to go on with a relation so it means, you will have to find another one, and it is not that easy sometimes, to find complicity, laugh, and chemistry in our sexual life. You can find someone else, not fulfilling as much as you were used to, your sensuality.

So the perfect moment of bliss connected to love and sexuality is often linked to the problem you have of the desire to repeat this moment. Krishnamurti wrote that suffering was linked to the fact you want to repeat the pleasure.

However, maybe one day, happiness will happen when spending a few minutes time with a machine. And maybe you will even be able to repeat the pleasure as much as you want, without any after effects.

Will it be good or bad at the end? I do not know. Do we need the feeling of suffering in our life? Do we need as well to suffer to be able to grow spiritually, to think about our lives, about the mistakes we could have done…

Do we need gravity and seriousness? Do we need nostalgia?
Do we need this feeling of loneliness? Do we need anxiety and fear?

To be happy or unhappy? To be a human, with an all pallet of feelings, all kind of colors inside. White, black, dark, light, red, blue, all kind of colors inside, outside.


Brands I was talking about.

Smaxel Seoul Korea, for laser fractional Co2, dsmed at or dsmed at, they even have the laser to make vaginas being tighter. It amazed me. I tried it for scars, it seems to work even if I did not try other type of lasers for scars, so I cannot compare. They also did it for wrinkles close to the eyes, it was very light, not painful at all.

Laser Vaginal rejuvenation Ultra pulse CO2 laser. Urinary incontinence. Etc. I never had kids so I do not have a lot of problems, but who knows, in some years I might need it in my older days. Good to know it exists.
South Korea seems to be very efficient for medical machines.

The machines to relax the muscles, it is the shock wave therapy Rosetta, Remed in Seoul. I tried it.

There is another one the same, kind it is extracorporal magnetic stimulation (EMS)
The machine was called BioCon/ 1000 pro technology
They also have the biofeedback system, urodynamic system, etc. wschoi at

For the lungs problems, this machine for people suffering from asthma, or diffents kind of problems, did not try it, it is called Careway high frequency chest wall oscillator Lisa Jeong hmjeong at korust dot com

For ashtma, had interesting stuff. Germany.

The machine for incontinence, pelvic pain, prostatitis, erectile dysfunction, vaginal tonus, orgasm problems, hemorrohoids and prevention of hip fractures, that I did not have the pleasure to try, was called Neo control, pelvic floor rehabilitation therapy. Munchen Germany it is a new technology called extracorporeal magnetic innervations.

The machine which seemed to have been me euphoric was called TAMAS. Electro magnetic stimulator a proven non drug treatment for depression. The indication is obsessive compulsive disorder, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, anxiety, tinnitus, hallucination, insomnia, headache, panic, epilepsy (they seemed pretty enthusiastic about their results for epilepsy), facial palsy, multiple sclerosis, stroke, Parkinson disease, and in fact for autism as well as they told me but it is not written.

It is the same branch that had the Rosetta for muscles. CRT technology, Seoul Korea.
Fax 82 24 18 09 86 this machine costs around 20 000 USD or maybe more.


Gnap Gnap

About darkness

If you tell people you had witnessed angels full of light, joy and no judgment in a beautiful white storm, and listened to the choir of angels and the crystal bells, this Disney vision will make you lose credibility in your professional life, in your life generally speaking for a lot of reasons. Some of the reasons could be some religious conflicts but some other reasons could be that you would sound like a very naive person, not really trustable anymore.

On the contrary, if you tell a story in which you had been with a friend in your living room, and that suddenly a black shadow full of hate and smelling awful, sent an ectoplasm of anger on your face, and started to strangle your friend, most of the people would be scared, and a lot would believe you.

The reason could be the planet earth being on low frequencies. We are much closer to the lower energy level than to the high energy level.

For a long time, I did not believe in the black light, in evil. For me darkness was just an absence of light. However, at that time, I had never met what I would call the black light, which like a black hole seems to have the power to stay dark in the light and even to in a certain way swallow the light.

There is a mathematic law which always fascinated me. Two positives make a positive    + + += +

But if you add a positive with a negative the negative will make the result being negative so    + + – = –

And on the other side two negatives make a positive which is nearly like a miracle if you think about it so   – + – = +

I never read this anywhere being applied on the psychological level or spiritual level of our lives, if a thinker takes it in a book after having read this blog, so I would be happy about it as nobody never speaks about it, when it seems important to me to think about it and to think about it in our love, friendly and professional life.

How many times last year did I feel guilty about not being able to reverse a situation? So often. I would always try and try, to reverse a negative situation into a positive one, but what happened inevitably was me becoming negative, being trapped in a negative situation. It happened in my professional, friendly and love life.

That is why it is so difficult to know how to handle a war. You can handle a war, with peace and love words, but in front of you the negativity will not only laugh at you but will quite inevitably hurt you. But if you arrive with a bomb, and you tell them, Ok I shut you down if you do not calm down, so they might surrender and even maybe respect you as you would be the strongest one.

To shut on someone or to threaten someone of a bomb, is for sure negative, but to arrive with you hippy suit saying oh guys, why don’t you just calm down and why don’t we just love each other does not seem to work that much. Tibet is the perfect example of it.

The Dalai Lama from over the border is able to act for his people.However the monks got tortured in the most horrific possible ways, and 90% of Lhassa has been erased from the map. I have witnessed it and it made me think a lot about the power of love and no army, in front of adversity. Tibet has been erased from the map. And the sad story is that the ones who started to kill the monks and to attack Tibet were in fact the English soldiers, opening the door to violence in 1905, showing the wrong model in Asia.

Queen Victoria attacked China during the 19th century to get more opium as all UK had been completely addicted to many kind of drugs, and the Emperor of China wrote her a nice letter to inform her about the danger of opium and drugs for her people without success.

To stop a war most of the times, you have to come reluctantly, but inevitably with stronger weapons and armies. Negativity respects negativity. And it could turn by a kind of weird mathematical miracle into a positive situation most of the time called a peace.

It is as well a little like the AA works and all the association regrouping people with the same issues, talking about it, and being able to help each others.

If you have never been into any addiction, it is very difficult for you to understand someone being an addict.  Or the spectacle of someone you love destroying itself will make you think about your own addiction and to take the decision to stop it.

On the other way, you as a positive entity in a situation will become more and more negative confronted to a negative situation. You will feel guilty about it. But it is what negativity wants you to become, the negativity wants you to become negative. And in most of the case will succeed very well.

The only way you can face negativity without becoming negative yourself is to step back from the situation, but if you stay too close for sure you will become negative.

Like the purple smurf, in the original French version, it is called the Gnap gnap Smurf and it is dark and not purple, and so little by little all the Smurfs become dark and they have to find the source of darkness in this case a bee, a dark bee, to prepare a vaccination. It is as well, the way vaccination had been invented, a negative fighting another negative and making at the end a protection against a disease.

Antibiotics kill bacteria. It is a negative fighting another negative to fight a disease.

So in 2014 I felt guilty of not having been able to transform a negative situation into a positive one, and it had been like this, the years before.

Not only once, I have been able to reverse a negative situation into a positive. It made me feel guilty, as I tried, but it is maybe the way it is.

A positive cannot make a negative becoming positive. But will inevitably become negative itself. So the best is to step back from the situation. What the darkness wants is you to hate. The darkness will do everything for you to hate. The darkness at the start could make you love, but only in the goal, even not consciously, to make you hate.

The darkness hates love, is not interested in loving or being loved. The darkness just wants you to hate. And will put in place everything possible to make you hate.

In the French language, darkness is a feminine word, when dark is a masculine one. La noirceur, le noir. Dark, darkness, feminine, masculine, whatever it is, it just wants you to hate.

What will put in place darkness for you to hate? Violence, calumny, defamation, betrayal, cheating, lies, mental manipulation, etc. etc.

In the Christianity we would say that God is the truth and the devil is lies. In some Satanist sects, they would teach you how to divide with lies, how to gain power and to climb the stairs of power using defamation and calumny in your workplace, to climb up the stairs of power.

Darkness to not spread and becoming stronger needs to be put a limit of, and a solid frame to prevent other people being hurt by this negative energy.

If inside a relation, you are the one being sober, and the other one is drinking, and is becoming violent and aggressive when drinking, so you can see yourself as the positive element if your goal is to help, peace and harmony.

If inside a relation the other one is hooked on drugs making him or her violent and aggressive toward peaceful people, you included, so you can see yourself as the positive element in the situation. If your goal in a relation of any kind is peace, love and harmony but the other one, is being abusive and violent, so you can see yourself as the positive element.

However, there are different kinds of negativity. If someone is in love with you and you are responsible for the situation, and you react by not answering any friendly messages or not helping this person to get over you, so you are acting as the negative element in the situation.

On the contrary, to answer kindly, to be supportive and communicative, will help the other one to forget faster. The silence will make this person thinking you are angry or mad for something, or even dead somewhere. So a simple silence in some cases can be a terrible weapon against someone, and can lead to aggressivity and violence on the other part.

As to cheat on someone does not always mean you are the negative person and the other one the positive in a couple.

But in a couple if one is in a compulsive behavior of cheating when the other one is faithful, even this does not make the one cheating being the negative element, if for example his DNA has a dozen of generations of men living in harem, a time when the wives had to be faithful and the men could have several wives. It can be as well, that his or her partner is not as sexual as she or he is.

So it is quite subtile when someone is being positive and negative. If a man comes back home and surprised his wife naked in bed with a man, it does not make her the negative element, but if he breaks a vase in the bedroom, and if the wife makes him feel guilty and complains everywhere about her husband being violent and breaking a vase and adding that he broke much more than that when it is not true, without explaining the all situation, it makes her at that time being the negative element in the situation as the most manipulative one.

If her husband surprised her in bed with another man, a reaction of anger is acceptable.

So it is within our heart, and our soul for each of us, to think, when have I been the negative element knowing that people suffering from mental illness, are no more able sometimes to think quietly about them being positive or negative. Even on medication, they are often no more able to think about being positive and negative.

I worked in psychiatry, and saw calm and peaceful people under medication who could kill someone without their medication, just because of the brain chemistry. It made me think a lot about the concept of guiltiness.

Same if someone suffered from being neglected or abuse in childhood, the consequences might be to become border line, schizophrenic, addicted to drugs or alcohol, suffering from stress post traumatic disorder, and in a lot of cases abusive, manipulative and violent.

Does it make this person being guilty? A negative element but not a guilty element. When are we negative, and when are we guilty? Vast topic…

18th of February

I am reading again this blog article that I wrote the 7th of February.

So in fact, if a negative is making me becoming negative, do I turn into a negative to make the situation becoming positive at the end? Is it the only way?

In the Smurf story, at the end, all the smurfs become black, even the old Smurf, so the situation seems hopeless, but then a bomb full of the healing pollen explodes and heals all the smurfs. It means a coincidence, linked to a kind of divine intervention solves the situation.

Can the divine intervention turn a negative in a positive? It reminds me a long time ago, having for the first time observed this black light on a man’s head.

I did not talk, did not say a word, projected a white light on him, on his head, and asked the angels to protect me. And it worked in fact, he left the room, it was the evening. The morning he came back, and told me that I should be dead, that I had protections around me. That he could not hurt me.

I never really tried to know more about this as the all situation was so freaky making me think of the film Shining, and I really do not enjoy at all horror movies. Never watch them.

It was creepy because this man did not do anything to harm me, I just saw his face being transformed, and the black light spreading on him, we did not talk, we did not say a word. None of us.

I just covered him with my thoughts with a white light, and asked for the protection.

He just left, without a word.

To be followed maybe or maybe not in the next article about this time Gargamel, about black magic. If I have the energy for this. Not that sure. Do not like to talk about it. To think about it.